A "click" that changed my life

 One day, like any other day of my life, I was scrolling through Facebook home page like usual when an advertising came up, it looks very interesting so I watched the video of a man who apply to a scholarship of Nanodegree course at Udacity and how he was able to simply shift his career after graduation and completing this course. It does really a huge impact on me and encourage me to fill the form and apply without any hesitation specially I have plenty of time ,not engaged with any jobs , I love learning and looking forward to start a career that easily achieved from home.

But I got worried while filling the application form I couldn't answer some questions because I don't have enough experience or knowledge about digital marketing before and I thought I've no chance to join the course. But the unexpected happen and I was lucky to receive mail that I got accepted and it made me really happy for this chance and the new beginning that will change my life completely.

So after 3 weeks, I'm so happy that I made this step,I'm even more interested than the first time I saw the Ad on Facebook and looking forward to every step on this journey and craving to learn more 

So if you are interested and have a lots of free time, why don't you join me and learn something new that may change the rest of your life

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Day 6: steps (1)

Did you ever think that anything you have become or the way you are now is result of lots of different circumstances, lessons of life, conclusions you get,you're mix of your thoughts,ideas and beliefs you learnt your whole life. But it doesn't happen at once, it's long journey, you keep building yourself and changing some bad things about you or thought with good one. As long as you breathe you keep learning each day a new thing, you keep searching deep inside your soul and you know yourself more and trying your best to fix it. No one is perfect but maybe our  journey in life to keep trying and dealing with this self to become better person, to be the best version of you,to inspire others to be better version of themselves. To be good and kind ,to spread love. At the end the way you are is a long process with lots of steps.

To be continued...

Day 5: keyboard

1st late post
I was thinking wether to escape day 5 or not but i decide to post 2 posts today one for yesterday and one for today .

So here I'm trying to keep posting . I'm using my mobile this time to write this post. I found out when i started this challenge that i like to use keyboard and i was happy that i still remember i mean my fingers still remember using it.
I really like it, you use all of your fingers without looking it's kinda amazing feeling and you even write faster than using one or 2 fingers . So if you kinda stopped using your laptop or pc . Try it now, you'll feel great and lots of memories will come back .☺

Day 4: Eid

The idea to keep posting every day even if it's only some photos 

 Taken by me ❤

Day 3: New day

Today,i'm late but i'm not escaping my daily post

few months ago, i started to live with concept everyday is new day, doing my best when i feel well ,doing the best i could when i can do this. you know not thinking of yesterday or tomorrow just thinking of what i have right now and what i can do at that day -just that simple. sometimes, i wake up not feeling well or have no power to do anything so i accept it without feeling any guilt , just take a break and take rest, tomorrow is a new day and i'll feel much better then i can continue whatever i'm doing.

i think living this way has a lots of benefits,it seem like living every day as it's the last day of your life or like it's the only thing that you have. you will feel differently and be thankful you still alive for one more day, you will cherish every second you have.you will try and do your best to make the best of the day, you'll do your best to make the day count. to use each min. and you waste less time you used to waste normally as you always decide the thing you won't do it today ,you say tomorrow i will do it but tomorrow never come and you keep postpone this task for ages, but in this case you've no tomorrow only Today.



Everyday is a new day, live only for Today as it's all you have got. live it as your last day of your life.
be thankful as you have one more day to live and count your blessing 

Day 2:meaningless

After i finished yesterday post ,i was so excited to post more and lots of thoughts filled my head struggling to come out !

but now i'm not sure ,not feeling in a mood to say anything. Actually not feeling well.probably my brain not working too.

Today 28 Ramadan , so tomorrow last day of this great month. i can't tell how i feel, but it passes so so fast that you feel no time to do anything the way you would like it to be done but we pray that may Allah accept our good deeds and forgive us if we could do more but we didn't .

sometimes, you feel everything are meaningless specially when you lose special one forever, like no meaning of staying alive or no meaning of  living or doing anything, nothing feel the same. just days passes and you simply waiting your time to come. you may look normal to everyone around , you smile and life goes on but deep inside your heart is broken,there's a sadness inside your heart that need time to feel the opposite. you need time to heal.you need people to understand that too without saying and you want them stop asking why aren't you enjoying what are you doing!,they should be thankful that you can move on and live but without feeling or meaning to whatever you are doing at this point. it's something you can't control but you're patient until time passes and all these sadness deep inside gone. thankfully you accept every feeling you have and waits till it take its journey inside you,sometimes it conquer all of you ,your mind and heart.sometimes you can resist it and win to have some peace of mind and sometimes you lose. it gonna take time until the battle is over, everything take time so be patient until it ends and stay strong

be patient and stay strong 

Day 1 : Intro. + " For me"

Well, last time i post something was in 2016 !

anyway, here i am, i'm back ,trying to start something that i actually don't know how it will ends or what i will get at the end of this journey or even i will commit till the end of it. so i'll be here for 30 days. daily random thoughts just write down whatever cross my mind with daily random photo of my day.

this is a challenge for me, as always i have problem to stuck on something for more than 3 - 5 days .so lets try to do that for 30 days for 30min per day, with no pressure if i miss a day or stopped

why blogging?
for myself, I've found that the way i am now or how i think, in fact helps the future me somehow, because after years i'll be reading this and actually don't believe that i wrote that 1 day :))
but sometimes, let me know i didn't change that much that i'm same person but with different age :)) but more grown up i believe.sometimes,what i post now push me forward ,maybe refresh my memory and thoughts.

Same in twitter as it's been a while i spend more time using it maybe not more time but where i express my feeling or sharing thoughts. and every while i go through all my tweets and it give me some kinda power. so i tweet message for the older me. maybe it helps me in the future.

i went to twitter to a run away from Facebook and from all the eyes who would wonder why she says that or what does she means or whatever . I've no power to argue with anyone or even to try to make someone understand my point of view or even care what they think what am i thinking or doing with my life.though my life is so simple that anyone can imagine :D but still some people are curious but i'm way too mysterious :]

i'm kinda person who love to take it easy all the time, to enjoy little details and do anything the best i could, i hate to be in rush , like running in life doing everything quickly just to be done with no feelings and forget the main reason of life or who am i or what i wanna do with my life.

so my advice" keep it simple and take it easy, stay mysterious in a world full of naked lives".

do it later !!

it's a life curse, when you decide to make things later or do it tomorrow not now or today, you're actually wasting years of your life without knowing.delaying your daily tasks is the worst thing you can ever do,when you've this option in your life with no specific while/time or dead end ,you'll actually keep delaying things forever and done nothing ever ..and this's my life 

keep delaying and list most of things to do later,i hate it. i've already wasted years and don't wanna waste more but it won't be wasted by a wish ! i must do something and work hard, i need to make lots of efforts so i can stand up again and make up for these wasted years ,so may Allah make me strong and determined to achieve something remarkable this year

so my advice to myself & you, don't waste time or delay any task or work for later. life's too short to be wasted.later not an option any more,simply do it Now  

 

unexpected gift :)

I don't remember when was the last time i got a gift , unexpected or even expected one !! 

you know wrapped gift with love with card full of deep true feelings and the gift something you love and need but you totally forgot you actually need it. 

i don't know if social media is the reason there's no feeling any more, and people wish others happy birthdays or whatever with photos or even words and that's it ! even now few who wishes you :/ 

i really don't know what's wrong with people?! because a gift would cost much and every1 now afford living hardly!! i'm not saying an expensive gift but enough remembering someone it'll makes her/him happy with something even if it cost 1$ 

nowadays, i'm seriously searching a job which is somehow not me and not a thing i would be serious about but i wanna buy gifts for my family and friends ..and for myself , so to buy gifts i need money and money mean to do a job. so i hope i can do find a job soon 

so whoever come across this post, give gifts to your loved ones for no reason and let them know that you care and really appreciate them being in your life.

i would love to end this post with our beloved prophet Muhammad(PBUH)'s Hadith 

  

Feeling bad

After 30 min call with someone who is trying to advice me to take action about something in my life that normally people do and don't wait for so long without doing a thing !

ok,the thing is i'm married since almost 4 years and no baby yet. so it's actually a problem in our community though i found lots of people all over the world face the same way of thinking about that problem from their community

anyway,i don't know really why the exact thing that made me feel bad, because it's something personal and no one in the world business or because i desperately wanna have my own baby as it's been long time now as a married person and i afraid as most of people that i might not have a baby or i really wanna but nothing in my hand to do or it's just mixed feeling.. i really don't know .

i admit i mostly don't think of it or give it 5% of my thinking or mind. and sometimes i feel i'm free now and i can get busy to make my dreams come true,i'm afraid of having baby and my life changed and i forget myself and my dreams completely then i regret it later. though i keep telling myself it could be something that push my forward my dreams and even work hard but i don't know.

no,don't think like i'm being selfish and thinking about myself and dreams or so.. i really wanna be a mother, everyone knows that any baby or little kids i met loves me without a reason and i love them all ,love to play with them and draw things and listening to whatever they are saying and answering whatever they're asking

everyone simply don't understand that i leave it to Allah,i know at the right time i'll be a mother, when i'm ready for it, not everyone's life is the same, just give me a break and mind your own business,i really don't understand why people behave this way they keep pressing at your weakness or the thing you don't have and make you go crazy or feeling pressure that you're incomplete though we're all human and not perfect nor complete !! why don't we just simply live our life and enjoy the moment ,why the rush ?! why we need everything right now ..at this moment ! somethings meant to be this way take some time !! yes,we should do what we've to do and leave the rest to Allah ,our god who created us,He knows better and knows what is right for us at this moment and He's very Generous and i've faith that i'll be a mother at the right time He chooses for me

so people somethings take time,so chill and live your life and stop interfering other's life
Peace!     

before new year...

i'm late as always which it's not good at all. but still wanna do my best and keep trying till i change the way i always wished for .

i wanted to post at the end of last month about what i've achieved but i actually didn't. why?! no time or ... !! no reason maybe lazy to type which not good either :/

before making my new year plan which i'm also very late to planning it .still wasting time :/
but i won't give up on myself or my plans or my dream i've to keep trying & trying..
never lose hope

few things to do...
check what i've done 4m last month plan .i didn't do much but i wanna face myself with the ugly truth that i only plan but never make things happen as i planed

make new year plan and next month plan.. only few days b4 the end of jan. so i'll only plan and set everything on right place

commitment

My big problem in life,Commitment. i've a problem to commit to plan ,i can't stick into plan i make more than 2 to 3 days only!! that's way i can't achieve anything in my life.
i can't make my dreams come true or make any accomplishments ,that's really sad & disappointing.

this month ,i'm trying my best to be more committed to my monthly plan & hoping to achieve some great stuff so i can feel satisfied & contented deep inside about myself

another way to teach myself to stay committed , my youtube channel.. though i keep telling my sister other reasons why i created this channel but the main reason i started to commit & upload video or 2 every week. deep inside i'm a person who likes to be more behind the senses to be seen :D

another reason to be more confident, this a major problem i got, always feeling shy so i can't speak or .. not good thing at all

i hope to be more committed so i can live my life and feel a complete Satisfaction

  

Youtube Banner

Finally,
i designed a banner for my youtube channel ,i'm happy with it as my 1st try to make 1. maybe it's not so amazing but still i'm satisfied .everything has a beginning and after a while i'll be more professional :))

ok ,this is my 1st. banner

but after i uploaded on channel , i couldn't read it so i made some changes and this was the final look

i'm not sure which one is better, hope you can help me out to choose
they look different as a channel banner i'll screen record it and will upload it
i've a problem with print screen or i would have done it already

so how i designed it. it's so easy & u don't need any experience or knowledge to create one
so thanks to this video i made my own banner
  

and here's the link of pic monkey site
picmonkey photo editor

so make your own banner & have fun :)

last month of the year 2014

it's sad how fast days passes !! only few days away from 2015. so i had too plan this month and make some achievements so i feel kinda satisfied about myself.

yesterday morning i made plan. i kinda follow it yesterday but i missed some few things which is not good. and it seems like today i won't be able to complete all tasks i planed but still i'll do my best and won't give up till the last sec. of this month of this year

• one of my plans no FB ,it does waste most of my time and every1's time on this plant though it's been over year and half i'm not that much into FB anymore,still somehow wastes my time.

• i've too care more about my health ,exercise ,eat healthy food,drink lots of water(though it's hard to do as it's winter already) drink useful drinks , loss weight now 65kg >>> 60kg is my target 

• focus >>> on my youtube channel, complete 20 videos. design logo & banner, create instagram account & blog..

• study >> interior design- i've abook to study & other interesting stuff all about interior design..

         also wanna start english course online ..maybe learn photoshop

• starting my zone.. which will be my workshop where i can make different stuff, crafting :D

• more care about me....

• do more blogging ..

still planning for more.... this month i must control my life ..

youtube channel

sometimes, we make plans before the new year begins but days passes and plans changes or things happen differently not as we planned
as i mentioned before that i wanna have my 1st book published in 2015 . but there's no book and we're only 1 month away from 2015
but still i've created a channel on YouTube. still working on it. but i've made about 9 videos already . i'll make a blog specially for it ,make a banner design ....etc

support me.. :)

http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpPsbGIdJbNyYlwZvgNFQHQ/feed


i'll keep you updated when i create the new blog & even i'll upload the banner design i'll make :)
till then take care

sometimes i'm lost..

sometimes you start something with all the passion you've & feeling so excited about it. Enthusiasm full your mind and soul..
but then after few days somehow you loss all. don't know how it happened or why ?!
zero feelings.. maybe the only feeling you got is "bad feelings" 
don't wanna do a thing & mood is at worst case ..even not having the same feeling about what u just started..and why? no reason..
you're feeling lost in fact.. so it's been few days that i'm feeling lost,even i'm not feeling good about myself.. like a big loser .never done something before no Achievements or any
accomplishment then you start wondering ..why i'm doing with my life?! why i actually living for? time passes ..getting older..and you still didn't find the thing you will do with passion . the thing you'll do and will make you happy..
lots of bad feelings and thoughts.. but hey, don't let yourself drown into depression of fail
you've to pull yourself out of this illusion coz it's not true that you aren't capable of achieving something. it's wrong to think you won't make your dream come true and do the thing you love and be happy with it.you've got what everyone has. 24 hours ,good heath & brain to think and make a remarkable decisions. you've to believe. you need to work hard after you set your goal and take steps forward to it. write your dream on a paper.. write it with large letters and hang it on your wall.. so you can see it all the time and remind yourself what you're doing all the hard working. whenever you feel down or can't go on. just look at it and wake up again .refresh your memory and mind then you'll be able to go on and continue ..
if you fall..stand by yourself and start over again. it's important not to give up .never give up hope as you still breath.
let the passion be the power to go on when you need too
it's only you who can help you. and that's what i'm doing now..i'm telling myself it's never too late just stand up again and do it with love ..help yourself and start over to find the way back on track .you can do it if you intend to.. just have faith, be patient everything takes time..

all you need is passion & love take them along with u through the way :)

to do list

did you ever try it before? make your "to do list" ?!
maybe you tried it before maybe you never did so
but i did it many times and it works in very good way ,i even notice that when i do my "to do list" life become easier and i complete lots of tasks that i'm sure i would forget doing them if i didn't write them down on my "to do list" paper 

 

so if you wanna make your life easier, and accomplish or achieve everything you wanna . if you wanna use the best of your time so you won't regret it later that your day or time was wasted and you did nothing! if you wanna feel relaxed and very comfortable .just make "to do list" it will change your life in  a good way that you'll feel that you control your life and time. you'll have an organized life & time.

i notice as well when i don't make this list . my time & my day is wasted .and i feel bad at the end of the day as i did nothing . so to get rid of such feelings make your own list 
Have a simple easy organized life and enjoy 

and remember it's better to write it before you go to bed at night so you can sleep without thinkin what to do tomorrow and and when u wake up, you will forget all..

to do list/check list 
write all the tasks so you can remember what you wanna do and when it's done just cross them and you will feel relive . try it , you won't regret it 

 you won't be stressed ot worried about what to do tomorrow when you have your"to do list"

 

A goal to achieve. ..

This post to remind myself about my yearly project or my assignment of the year ..

My goal to publish my 1st. Book next year. On 2015 I'll publish my book. So I've 2 work hard on finishing it this year , I've got only 9 months to be done with it.
This book will prove to me that I can start something and finish it well no matter how long it will take. (Wanna learn myself that, as I always start anything but never finish a thing perfectly or even continue doing it)

Sometimes we have to challenge our own selves to be a better person.

So my advice to you who ever read this set a goal and do your best to make it happen, it's never too late to be whatever you wanna be

3/4/2014

Well,
This is my 1st. Post in 2014. As usual I had lots to say but no time to wirte it here and I even forgot what was all about !!
Anyway, at the beginning my review about last year 2013. Alhamdulliah it was quiet .. very peaceful year I would say.  Or maybe as I don't remember so much details about last year. I read lot of books more than I used to read. Maybe become more doer . And I guess I started somehow to control my life. It was an okay year !! I look behind and I remember nothing!! I got a problem lately remember details but as i remember nothing it means there were nothing special to mention,  anyways let's talk about 2014

2014
3 months passed already, it's something big but somehow I got busy as I went back to Egypt for 40 days and I came back to riyadh Feb. 18 and got busy here with some stuff but now becoming free day by day so I hope I'll find more time to come over here and say everything in my mind

Lots of plans for this year hope to achieve it wisely :)
Will tell you more details later . C ya ;)

it's time to say....

Enough..

Enough wasting time..
start planning over again..
use your time the best you can..
finish everything you've to do at time..
stop delaying
change your life..


so my plan.. is i'll start over.
make new plans for everything in my life
for every details
create a system for my own life style
starting with next month ..i'll do it for a month
you know if u wanna something to become a habit ,you need to do it daily for a month then it will become a habit

i'll keep you posted & updated my dear blog

my life need lots of changes & a huge decisions
i need to be really serious this time .. we only live once.. so make your life a remarkable one