"Don't Force me to let go the MONSTER deep inside me.."
Remember, i Warned You
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Friday, February 1, 2013
disappointed and lost
disappointed for real !! for many reasons lately ,never wanted to say such a thing or even make anyone feels bad in the future when he/she read this post !! how actually that happen ?! don't ask ! and for how long i would.. no how long i could handle it & be patient ?! not sure.. i'm afraid i decide something that i might regret later in my life ,at same time, afraid not to react fast and regret in future as well. same fear! different choices ! but which 1 should i pick !! who shall i ask for advice ?!!
i wanna simply stop doing that to myself, being very careful not to hurt anyone and it always end up hurting myself due to avoid hurting other !! i wanna say what i wanted to say in loud in the face,not in my mind and don't think if i said so would it hurt or not. coz if they r not even thinkin that their words may hurt my feelings very deeply as i care then whatever i won't care any more. why should i care when they don't ?!
i just wanna live a happy simple life ,is that too much to ask ??
& simply i hate to have fears.. i hate most to feel regret !
also i wanna simply not to waste time on useless stuff or useless fights and for what ?!! we not gonna live forever! why can't we simply live and enjoy life as we've only one life to live !!
i hate people who ruined my mood, my positive attitude of living my life coz they simply not only ruining my mood but also ruining my writings ,my day & my life.
should i kick them out of my circle so i can live in peace as i used to ! even if it's not that easy to decide so !! or should i deal with it and try to live with it and simply don't let whoever tries to ruin my mood and my life style achieve his/her goal which is ruining my mood again !!
i wanna simply stop doing that to myself, being very careful not to hurt anyone and it always end up hurting myself due to avoid hurting other !! i wanna say what i wanted to say in loud in the face,not in my mind and don't think if i said so would it hurt or not. coz if they r not even thinkin that their words may hurt my feelings very deeply as i care then whatever i won't care any more. why should i care when they don't ?!
i just wanna live a happy simple life ,is that too much to ask ??
& simply i hate to have fears.. i hate most to feel regret !
also i wanna simply not to waste time on useless stuff or useless fights and for what ?!! we not gonna live forever! why can't we simply live and enjoy life as we've only one life to live !!
i hate people who ruined my mood, my positive attitude of living my life coz they simply not only ruining my mood but also ruining my writings ,my day & my life.
should i kick them out of my circle so i can live in peace as i used to ! even if it's not that easy to decide so !! or should i deal with it and try to live with it and simply don't let whoever tries to ruin my mood and my life style achieve his/her goal which is ruining my mood again !!
just keep these words in your mind , you will need it some day
Monday, January 7, 2013
8 Jan 2013
seem it's been days i'm wasting time which it's against my yearly plan so now i gonna write down what i supposed to do and finish it
ok see ya
now it's 4:55 pm
and i'm totally exhausted & deadly tired :S but i finshed the bedroom only :/ it took more than i thought it would
i think kitchen will do it tomorrow ,i've no power left for it
i'll just take some rest and do some light cleaning for living room till then take care ;)
- Bedroom : do Clean now it's 10:45 am so i give myself till 12:00 pm to finish it completely
- Kitchen: wash dishes,Clean the fridge & whole kitchen 12:30 pm to 2:00 pm
ok see ya
and i'm totally exhausted & deadly tired :S but i finshed the bedroom only :/ it took more than i thought it would
i think kitchen will do it tomorrow ,i've no power left for it
i'll just take some rest and do some light cleaning for living room till then take care ;)
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
2012
no post in 2012 !! why ??!! so much events happened !! no time to mention these events , maybe?!
right now .i'm not in the mood to write even i wasn't planning to do so now ! though i wanted to long time ago but ....
lots of work to do.. cleaning... but i'm not even in that mood !! i didn't sleep well and i can't go to sleep again if some1 wakes me up!! so here i'm writing this
i wanna write down what i've learned last year , if i describe it in one word it would be" Painful" physically !! but still i've become stronger than before ,i can depend on myself doing everything on my own .. taking charge and responsibility of everything in my life.. i've grown up and day by day i grow more.. mentally .. understand more and more about life
i wanna be the best version of me! wanna be better than last year this my wish for this new year.. wanna do things more.. wanna achieve things and feel proud of and feel happy that i did accomplished something
last yeat i had no plan... or my plan was no plan as my life taking different direction and changing so i had to find it out 1st and adapt my new life then go again with yearly plans
and my plan for 2013 " it's in my nickname DO Do " coz i wanna do more than thinking and planning and talkin.. wanna talk less and work more.. wanna my actions be louder than words , my work speaks 4 me !! no1 will knew what ur intention or u were intent to do until they see with their own eyes
my plan to do more blogging as well and lots and lots.........
that's enough for now, see you soon :)
right now .i'm not in the mood to write even i wasn't planning to do so now ! though i wanted to long time ago but ....
lots of work to do.. cleaning... but i'm not even in that mood !! i didn't sleep well and i can't go to sleep again if some1 wakes me up!! so here i'm writing this
i wanna write down what i've learned last year , if i describe it in one word it would be" Painful" physically !! but still i've become stronger than before ,i can depend on myself doing everything on my own .. taking charge and responsibility of everything in my life.. i've grown up and day by day i grow more.. mentally .. understand more and more about life
i wanna be the best version of me! wanna be better than last year this my wish for this new year.. wanna do things more.. wanna achieve things and feel proud of and feel happy that i did accomplished something
last yeat i had no plan... or my plan was no plan as my life taking different direction and changing so i had to find it out 1st and adapt my new life then go again with yearly plans
and my plan for 2013 " it's in my nickname DO Do " coz i wanna do more than thinking and planning and talkin.. wanna talk less and work more.. wanna my actions be louder than words , my work speaks 4 me !! no1 will knew what ur intention or u were intent to do until they see with their own eyes
my plan to do more blogging as well and lots and lots.........
that's enough for now, see you soon :)
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
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