commitment

My big problem in life,Commitment. i've a problem to commit to plan ,i can't stick into plan i make more than 2 to 3 days only!! that's way i can't achieve anything in my life.
i can't make my dreams come true or make any accomplishments ,that's really sad & disappointing.

this month ,i'm trying my best to be more committed to my monthly plan & hoping to achieve some great stuff so i can feel satisfied & contented deep inside about myself

another way to teach myself to stay committed , my youtube channel.. though i keep telling my sister other reasons why i created this channel but the main reason i started to commit & upload video or 2 every week. deep inside i'm a person who likes to be more behind the senses to be seen :D

another reason to be more confident, this a major problem i got, always feeling shy so i can't speak or .. not good thing at all

i hope to be more committed so i can live my life and feel a complete Satisfaction

  

Youtube Banner

Finally,
i designed a banner for my youtube channel ,i'm happy with it as my 1st try to make 1. maybe it's not so amazing but still i'm satisfied .everything has a beginning and after a while i'll be more professional :))

ok ,this is my 1st. banner

but after i uploaded on channel , i couldn't read it so i made some changes and this was the final look

i'm not sure which one is better, hope you can help me out to choose
they look different as a channel banner i'll screen record it and will upload it
i've a problem with print screen or i would have done it already

so how i designed it. it's so easy & u don't need any experience or knowledge to create one
so thanks to this video i made my own banner
  

and here's the link of pic monkey site
picmonkey photo editor

so make your own banner & have fun :)

last month of the year 2014

it's sad how fast days passes !! only few days away from 2015. so i had too plan this month and make some achievements so i feel kinda satisfied about myself.

yesterday morning i made plan. i kinda follow it yesterday but i missed some few things which is not good. and it seems like today i won't be able to complete all tasks i planed but still i'll do my best and won't give up till the last sec. of this month of this year

• one of my plans no FB ,it does waste most of my time and every1's time on this plant though it's been over year and half i'm not that much into FB anymore,still somehow wastes my time.

• i've too care more about my health ,exercise ,eat healthy food,drink lots of water(though it's hard to do as it's winter already) drink useful drinks , loss weight now 65kg >>> 60kg is my target 

• focus >>> on my youtube channel, complete 20 videos. design logo & banner, create instagram account & blog..

• study >> interior design- i've abook to study & other interesting stuff all about interior design..

         also wanna start english course online ..maybe learn photoshop

• starting my zone.. which will be my workshop where i can make different stuff, crafting :D

• more care about me....

• do more blogging ..

still planning for more.... this month i must control my life ..

youtube channel

sometimes, we make plans before the new year begins but days passes and plans changes or things happen differently not as we planned
as i mentioned before that i wanna have my 1st book published in 2015 . but there's no book and we're only 1 month away from 2015
but still i've created a channel on YouTube. still working on it. but i've made about 9 videos already . i'll make a blog specially for it ,make a banner design ....etc

support me.. :)

http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpPsbGIdJbNyYlwZvgNFQHQ/feed


i'll keep you updated when i create the new blog & even i'll upload the banner design i'll make :)
till then take care

sometimes i'm lost..

sometimes you start something with all the passion you've & feeling so excited about it. Enthusiasm full your mind and soul..
but then after few days somehow you loss all. don't know how it happened or why ?!
zero feelings.. maybe the only feeling you got is "bad feelings" 
don't wanna do a thing & mood is at worst case ..even not having the same feeling about what u just started..and why? no reason..
you're feeling lost in fact.. so it's been few days that i'm feeling lost,even i'm not feeling good about myself.. like a big loser .never done something before no Achievements or any
accomplishment then you start wondering ..why i'm doing with my life?! why i actually living for? time passes ..getting older..and you still didn't find the thing you will do with passion . the thing you'll do and will make you happy..
lots of bad feelings and thoughts.. but hey, don't let yourself drown into depression of fail
you've to pull yourself out of this illusion coz it's not true that you aren't capable of achieving something. it's wrong to think you won't make your dream come true and do the thing you love and be happy with it.you've got what everyone has. 24 hours ,good heath & brain to think and make a remarkable decisions. you've to believe. you need to work hard after you set your goal and take steps forward to it. write your dream on a paper.. write it with large letters and hang it on your wall.. so you can see it all the time and remind yourself what you're doing all the hard working. whenever you feel down or can't go on. just look at it and wake up again .refresh your memory and mind then you'll be able to go on and continue ..
if you fall..stand by yourself and start over again. it's important not to give up .never give up hope as you still breath.
let the passion be the power to go on when you need too
it's only you who can help you. and that's what i'm doing now..i'm telling myself it's never too late just stand up again and do it with love ..help yourself and start over to find the way back on track .you can do it if you intend to.. just have faith, be patient everything takes time..

all you need is passion & love take them along with u through the way :)