Wednesday, November 27, 2013

it's time to say....

Enough wasting time..
start planning over again..
use your time the best you can..
finish everything you've to do at time..
stop delaying
change your life..

so my plan.. is i'll start over.
make new plans for everything in my life
for every details
create a system for my own life style
starting with next month ..i'll do it for a month
you know if u wanna something to become a habit ,you need to do it daily for a month then it will become a habit

i'll keep you posted & updated my dear blog

my life need lots of changes & a huge decisions
i need to be really serious this time .. we only live once.. so make your life a remarkable one 

Sunday, September 29, 2013

the thing that you avoid doing it !

i believe everyone has that thing,right?
the thing you always avoid doing .. you can simply do anything else except that thing... even if any other thing might needs more efforts or time.. you just can't stand doing it .

i believe when i was at univ. it was any assignment,i would waste my time doing anything but that assignment.

nowadays,that thing is.....
yup, it's washing dishes :/

it's not good at all.. so it's been a while so i had to think and find out a good solution for this problem. i feel restless and like i carry something heavy on my back.. even when do avoiding it feeling worse .. i used to avoid doing it but do anything ... but still it's not a solution for such problem.. and there's no body else would do it for me or instead of me!

so i got the courage and decide to do it 1st. yea,the thing i do avoid should be done 1st. b4 any other work . so you can feel relived and relaxed.

i love to see a clear sink .. a clear clean sink :)

  you'll feel very relaxed & happy. even if everything else is in mess.but 1ce you done it. you've done the biggest mission ;)

so the thing you should do... do the thing you avoid doing it First . something you've too do it, but you hate doing it. change your it..and do it 1st. your whole life gonna change for sure

whatever that thing is... Just Do it.. :)

Sunday, September 15, 2013


long time no see.
anyways,here i come. i'm still trying to manage to find time to come over here.
lots to tell
but this time let's talk about this month dreams ;)
ok i'm planning to do some new things . as this month i'll be 24 !! believe it or not !
still can't believe how old i become !
so i wanna get 2 things done..

1) wanna buy new short dress 
2) new hair cut

i believe it's not too much to ask :D

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Who Cares ?!!

hmm Yea I know ..... but who cares?!! Does any1 read my posts or waiting my new post ?!! Hahaha :)) I'm sure there's no 1 reading , infact the reason I started this blog to express my thoughts & feelings to feel better.. but still it might touch someone's life in a good way then it gonna be something wonderful ;)

I know lots visit or view my blog by chance so whoever come across my dear blog "you are welcome"

Tuesday, June 18, 2013


Another post to say that I miss you !! But I believe I made this post many times b4 , infact I believe that it's all about missing my blog ! Then what the reason I made this blog for !!! To let the words out of my head or to keep missing the blog ?!
I'm not alright when I'm far away as all the words get stuck in my head and cause a bad headache :/
Anyway,let's start over again & try more harder to keep in touch
To express whatever I have in mind & soul
Maybe it makes a difference in my life or someone's life , who knows? !
See you soon :)

Monday, February 25, 2013

Chocolate i adore :x

Well, i'm not crazy about Chocolate , means i can live without it ,Really i can :)
but i can't deny that some chocolate makes me feel happy :) puts me in amazing mood

one of them is >>>>>>>>
Galaxy Flutes :)

& it feels

& the best one Ever
which can make me Happy for Weeks :))
is >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
 ferrero rocher <3 <3 <3

Who can not fall deep in love with Ferrero !! <3 <3 <3

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Letter to a special friend :)

Dear ...
you know yourself well
just wanna let you know that i'm watching you :P
don't worry, just wanna make sure everything is fine
but it looks not , you can say that i'm watching your blog daily .. & it makes me feel bad that i can't help you :(
and whenever i wanted to comment that i'm here with you , i wanna tell you that you are not alone. and i'll always be there whenever you needed me, i'll always be by your side... i'll always support you as long as i live.. but i thought not to comment so, for many reasons, 1st, coz i'm afraid that i can't keep my promise to be always there for you, i afraid if that happen one day ,you will be disappointed , but you should know and be sure that it won't happen and i'll do my best to be there for you my good dear friend ,i admire you ,love you.. you are not only my friend but a sister too.

few months ago, i was close to death more than anything else, maybe that's why i don't wanna promise that i'll be there !! because since that time i feel that death so close to me and it comes any time then i won't be there no more but still as i said b4 i will be there as long as i still breathe

but still i want you to keep this in your mind "never search happiness in others,this will make u feel alone,but search it in urself,U will feel happy even if u left alone"

i tought myself to feel happy all the time even if i'm alone ,don't let anything or anyone ruin your mood

you know...
last year i've grown up.. if you can imagine how sick i was.. the pain i was suffering for months.. and i was alone... my family very far ..and i have to face all alone... i had to took care of lots of things though i'm not able too ..but it's my responsibility.... and a husband who fights most of times for nothing !!!
A surgery !! i was alone .. i wanted so badly to have my mother next to me... i was so weak,so sick...i was crying daily and pray that she can make it and come... even i put my clothes in the beg which i would wear after surgery ,no one helped me.. i found myself all alone, had to do everything by myself.. and i was so weak so much pain so much scared but i've to face all alone but at this time i felt it's time too grow up ,stop crying and take the charge.. and i had that faith that only Allah is with me.. He's the only one who feels what i suffering from and He's the only one who can make it ends.. so i go close to him & i felt He's so close to me

just wanna tell you at some point we'll be forced to grow up even if we don't wanna so
that what happened to me .. we must grow up whether we like it or not.. at some point we will be alone, have no one to depend on or asking for help this point we will be forced to depend on ourselves so we can survive ... but that will make you a strong person ..but don't worry the young girl deep inside will live forever ;)

be 100% sure that you are not alone.. because Allah is always there for all of us :)
He's the most Merciful , and also be sure He's the only one who can help you , people come and go... and sometimes people change... and some won't be there all the time but Him ,no never. He is always there

all you need to do,just go close to him and pray and ask him whatever you wish and be sure it'll come true ,you just have to wait ;)

i love you :)

please don't be sad & be happy
you know i'll always be there for you just knock my door and i'll be there :)

hugs & kisses

i might be watching you daily but there's who watch both of us every sec. Allah :)
so don't worry ,may your sadness turns into happiness :*


Monday, February 11, 2013

Dear blog !

My sweet blog!
 the only ear i got to hear whatever i wanna say & u never complain :)
How kind you are !! you are really amazing and great
u know what would make you perfect ?!! if you could talk to me back, advice me when i needed, encourage me !
anywayz, just wanna to say thanks for last time i was mad, i was angry as i never were before but after i came to you and explode ,i feel relived :)
can you believe it?? or even imagine ?? it's a blessing to have you. i can come to you whenever i wanna, say whatever i feel. and you feel happy with it and listen

so thanks & i love you :)

hugs & kisses

wanna ask me anything ?

Here's my account on Formspring :

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

wanna remind myself of "THE IMPORTANCE OF TIME"

This was an old post i wrote long time ago
as facebook's note , on Friday, November 6, 2009 at 1:33am ·


 There are among those who believe in the popular saying as "Time is Gold." Time in Islam is more than Gold or any precious material thing in this world. Of all religions, only Islam guides mankind not only to the importance of time but also how to value it. Allah the Almighty and His Messenger, Prophet Mohammad (PBUH), very clearly tell us the value of time, why we must not waste it and how we can make use of our time wisely to increase our Eeman (Faith) and thus attain success, especially eternal success in the life hereafter.

TimeThe following are some of the most important duties demanded of Muslims:

1. Ensuring benefiting from time
2. Utilizing leisure time
3. Racing for good deeds
4. Learning from the passage of time
5. Seeking the superior times
6. Planning and organizing time
7. Fulfillment of time commitments
8. Necessary awareness of time wasters

Both the Qur'an and the Sunnah enjoin Muslims to be conscious of time. We are reminded that life in this world is nothing but temporary. We never know when death has been appointed for us. We must value time for the satisfaction of Allah the Almighty. For our guidance and success, we must never waste time nor abuse it.

Ibn Abbas narrated that Prophet Mohammad (PBUH) said:

"There are two blessings which many people lose: (They are) health and free time for doing good." (Bukhari 8/421)

Indeed, we displease Allah the Most High when we abuse time. We must remember that time must be spent to fulfill our very purpose in life that is to worship Allah all throughout our lives. Allah makes this very clear in the Qur'an when He says:

I have only created Jinns and Men, that they may serve Me. No Sustenance do I require of them, nor do I require that they should feed Me. For Allah is He Who gives (all) Sustenance, Lord of Power, Steadfast (for ever). Qur'an (51:56-58)

But celebrate the praises of thy Lord, and be of those who prostrate themselves in adoration. And serve thy Lord until there come unto thee the Hour that is certain (i.e., death). Qur'an (15:98-99)

Everything we do in accordance with the Qur'an and the Sunnah is an act of worship. Such worship must be done sincerely for the pleasure of Allah alone. We should make use of our time (which includes our "free time") in doing beneficial things especially those that will make us closer to Allah and earn His Mercy.

We have to make use of our time wisely by knowing more of the Qur'an and the Sunnah. We must have correct knowledge of what Allah and His Messenger Prophet Mohammad (PBUH) have commanded us to do and at the same time to refrain from what they have forbidden us. This is imperative so that we earn Allah's pleasure and reward. Allah the Exalted makes it very clear, when he says:

O ye who believe! Obey Allah, and obey the messenger, and make not vain your deeds! Qur'an (47:33)

Corollary to the above divine commandment, we must ask ourselves: Have we been obeying Allah and His Messenger? To what extent have we used our time learning the Qur'an and the Sunnah in order to have correct Eeman (Faith), to do righteous deeds, to enjoin the Truth or do Da'wah, and be patient and constant? As time passes by, are we sure we are devoting our time for the sincere worship and pleasure of Allah the Most High? Are we taking guidance from the following very enlightening Ayat (Qur'anic verses)?

By (the Token of) Time (through the ages), Verily Man is in loss, Except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy. Qur'an (103:1-3)

In line with the above Qur'anic injunction, we have to discipline ourselves by giving value to the importance of time. We must be prompt in doing good deeds, which will increase our faith and subsequently enable us to gain Allah's pleasure and mercy.

Islam encourages Muslims to care for time, to utilize it wisely and not to waste it and to benefit from it. Besides, it holds them responsible for their time.

We have to remember that on the Day of Judgment we shall be asked how we spent our lives, wealth and knowledge. In other words, we will be questioned on how we spent everything that Allah has given us as implied in the following Hadith:

Narrated Abdullah Bin Mas`ud Allah's Messenger (PBUH) said:

"A man shall be asked concerning five things on the day of resurrection: concerning his life, how he spent it; concerning his youth, how he grew old; concerning his wealth, whence he acquired it, and in what way he spent it; and what was it that he did with the knowledge that he had."

The Prophet Mohammad (PBUH), used to call on Muslims to take the initiative to do good deeds before any obstacles arise. For instance, he said, "Lose no time to do good deeds before you are caught up by one of seven calamities awaiting you: a starvation which may impair your wisdom; a prosperity which may mislead you; an ailment which may damage your health; an old age which may harm your senses; a sudden death; the Dajjal (Antichrist); or Doomsday, which is indeed the hardest and most bitter." (at-Tirmidhi, al-Baihaqi)

The above Hadith urges Muslims to take the initiative, and not to delay good deeds; man's life is not free from impediments, such as those calamities, which can prevent him from accomplishing what could have been done earlier. Wise are those who grab available opportunities before being handicapped by obstacles.

If we are to evaluate ourselves objectively, have we been spending our time wisely for the pleasure of Allah the Almighty? Have we been spending our lives based on the Qur'an and the Sunnah? Have we been practicing Muslims? How many of us are Muminoon (Faithful Muslims) and/or Mutaqqoon (God Fearing Muslims)? How much knowledge of the Qur'an and the Sunnah do we know? Do we practice what we learn and impart the same to others or at least share them to our families and kin? Have we ever enjoined to others what is right and forbid what is wrong?

To be successful, we have to manage our time wisely by making plans for virtuous deeds that please Allah the Almighty. We must spend time learning Islam based on the Qur'an and the Sunnah.

Opportunity is something which is quick to vanish and late to return. Imam Hassan Al-Mujtaba (AS)
Another Year Passes By and Time Marches On

O ye who believe! Fear Allah, and let every soul look to what (provision) He has sent forth for the morrow. Yea, fear Allah: for Allah is well-acquainted with (all) that ye do. Qur'an (59:18)

Another year has passed; minutes move into hours => into days => into weeks => into months => into years - seemingly faster than ever; yet every moment is a precious component of life and every moment counts.

Time - Use it, do not abuse it

Our attitude towards time indicates our attitude towards the value of the capital of life. If we want to purchase something, we require financial capital; and if we want to do something in life, we require the capital of life, time. That is why the Qur'an exhorts us to value the time we have before life is up. Qur'an (63:10)

Realize that...

* Time is the measure of life, time is an amaanah (trust), time is a gift from the Creator and its proper use will determine our outcome for eternity.
* We are born in time, live in time and die in time; time is the ambit within which we operate. What we do with time is what we do with our lives.
* Each one must realize that every moment that passes by is an opportunity gone, used or abused; never to return. Soon time will be up and we'll have to leave this physical world and give account for our lives.
* The more we remind ourselves of the responsibility of the present the better we get at living the moment and the better we live the present moment the better the consequence for the future.

Our attitude towards the future influences our mind-set towards the rest of life. Being positive about life ahead is among life's greatest motivators. Hope is the best attitude one can harbor towards the future; this realistic expectation that something good or better could/will happen if only we continue doing the best we can. Remember that today well-lived makes yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope.

Wise are the words of the one who said ... "I expect to pass through this world but once; any good therefore that I can do, or any kindness that I can show to any fellow creature, let me do it now; let me not defer or neglect it, for I shall not pass this way again."

"O Allah! Make life a means for every dimension of goodness." [Prayer of the Prophet Mohammad (PBUH)]

The Characteristics of Time

We are to bear in mind that time has certain characteristics, among of which are the following:

1. Time passes quickly.
2. Time that passes can never return, nor can it be compensated for, for time is irretrievable.
3. Time is the most precious thing that man possesses.

Muslim's Duty towards Time:

Having all this great value and importance, time is to be duly appreciated and managed. In Islam there is no room for slogans like the so-called "killing time", for in Islam time is really valuable. In fact, wasting time is much more dangerous than squandering property, because unlike property, time cannot be compensated. Free time is a blessing that is overlooked, and not wholly appreciated by many people.

This indicates that it's very important for a Muslim to try his utmost to husband his time and make the best use of it in beneficial things. A Muslim may use portion of his time in making invocations and supplications, celebrating the praises of Allah. The Prophet Mohammad (PBUH), used to supplicate: "O Allah! I seek refuge in You from sorrow and distress, and I seek refuge in You from disability and laziness."

A Muslim should learn how to organize his time, and make a realistic plan for his worldly and religious duties, without any of them overlapping the other. That is to say that one should know how to arrange his priorities: the most important and the most urgent comes first, and carried out according to schedule. Organizing time also includes leaving a place for relaxation and entertainment, for 'all work and no play make Jack a dull boy.'

One of the methods of managing his time properly is for a Muslim to get up early and sleep early, for early hours always yield great blessings. Starting his day with prayer and the supplication of the morning brings the Muslim Allah's grace. A Muslim should always bear in mind that every time has its own task that suits it. Doing tasks in their due times brings about peace of mind and comfort.

Finally, we would like to cite the following Hadith of the Prophet Mohammad (PBUH), quoting from the Book of Ibrahim, peace be upon him: "A sane person, unless he is mindless, should have four hours: an hour to invoke to his Lord, an hour to count his own deeds, an hour to contemplate about the creation of Allah and an hour to satisfy his worldly needs."

Verily, time is very important for our success both in this temporary world and the eternal world to come. If we waste time, if we abuse it, then we waste and abuse our lives. In the Life Hereafter we will be among the losers, who will suffer the torments in the Hell Fire, if Allah the Almighty will not forgive us. Therefore, if we really give value to our lives then, we must give due value to the importance of time.
In general, sensible people know the importance of time.

Imagine there is a bank which credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day, allow you to keep no cash balance, and every evening cancels whatever part of the amount you had failed to use during the day.

What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course!

Well, everyone has such a bank. Its name is TIME. Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds. Every night it writes off, as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to good purpose.

It carries over no balance. It allows no overdraft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day. If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours.

There is no going back. There is no drawing against the "tomorrow". You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success! The clock is running. Make the most of today.

To realize the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who has failed a grade.
To realize the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a pre-mature baby.
To realize the value of ONE WEEK, ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of ONE DAY, ask a daily wage laborer who has kids to feed.
To realize the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who has missed the train.
To realize the value of ONE SECOND, ask a person who has avoided an accident.
To realize the value of ONE MILLI-SECOND, ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have! And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time ... and remember that time waits for no one. . .

Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery, today is a gift, that's why it's called the present!


it wasn't me who wrote this :)

Saturday, February 2, 2013

when i gets really Angry

"Don't Force me to let go the MONSTER deep inside me.."
Remember, i Warned You  

Friday, February 1, 2013

disappointed and lost

disappointed for real !! for many reasons lately ,never wanted to say such a thing or even make anyone feels bad in the future when he/she read this post !! how actually that happen ?! don't ask ! and for how long i would.. no how long i could handle it & be patient ?! not sure.. i'm afraid i decide something that i might regret later in my life ,at same time, afraid not to react fast and regret in future as well. same fear! different choices ! but which 1 should i pick !! who shall i ask for advice ?!! 

i wanna simply stop doing that to myself, being very careful not to hurt anyone and it always end up hurting myself due to avoid hurting other !! i wanna say what i wanted to say in loud in the face,not in my mind and don't think if i said so would it hurt or not. coz if they r not even thinkin that their words may hurt my feelings very deeply as i care then whatever i won't care any more. why should i care when they don't ?!

i just wanna live a happy simple life ,is that too much to ask ??

& simply i hate to have fears.. i hate most to feel regret !

also i wanna simply not to waste time on useless stuff or useless fights and for what ?!! we not gonna live forever! why can't we simply live and enjoy life as we've only one life to live !!

i hate people who ruined my mood, my positive attitude of living my life coz they simply not only ruining my mood but also ruining my writings ,my day & my life.
should i kick them out of my circle so i can live in peace as i used to ! even if it's not that easy to decide so !! or should i deal with it and try to live with it and simply don't let whoever tries to ruin my mood and my life style achieve his/her goal which is ruining my mood again !!

just keep these words in your mind , you will need it some day

Monday, January 7, 2013

8 Jan 2013

seem it's been days i'm wasting time which it's against my yearly plan so now i gonna write down what i supposed to do and finish it

  • Bedroom : do Clean now it's 10:45 am so i give myself till 12:00 pm to finish it completely 
  • Kitchen: wash dishes,Clean the fridge & whole kitchen 12:30 pm to 2:00 pm 
i'll be back after finishing bed room to do confirming :)

ok see ya  

 now it's 4:55 pm
and i'm totally exhausted & deadly tired :S but i finshed the bedroom only :/ it took more than i thought it would

i think kitchen will do it tomorrow ,i've no power left for it
i'll just take some rest and do some light cleaning for living room till then take care ;) 

Wednesday, January 2, 2013


no post in 2012 !! why ??!! so much events happened !! no time to mention these events , maybe?!
right now .i'm not in the mood to write even i wasn't planning to do so now ! though i wanted to long time ago but ....

lots of work to do.. cleaning... but i'm not even in that mood !! i didn't sleep well and i can't go to sleep again if some1 wakes me up!! so here i'm writing this

i wanna write down what i've learned last year , if i describe it in one word it would be" Painful" physically !! but still i've become stronger than before ,i can depend on myself doing everything on my own .. taking charge and responsibility of everything in my life.. i've grown up and day by day i grow more.. mentally .. understand more and more about life

i wanna be the best version of me! wanna be better than last year this my wish for this new year.. wanna do things more.. wanna achieve things and feel proud of and feel happy that i did accomplished something

last yeat i had no plan... or my plan was no plan as my life taking different direction and changing so i had to find it out 1st and adapt my new life then go again with yearly plans
and my plan for 2013 " it's in my nickname DO Do " coz i wanna do more than thinking and planning and talkin.. wanna talk less and work more.. wanna my actions be louder than words , my work speaks 4 me !! no1 will knew what ur intention or u were intent to do until they see with their own eyes

my plan to do more blogging as well and lots and lots.........

that's enough for now, see you soon :)